I had this situation in my life that happened to me more than 20 years ago. I thought I had forgiven all involved, myself included, and moved on. However while in 'The 40 Days in the Desert' program with Nina these past weeks it rose up again as if it [...]
Easter. The Day of the Resurrection. The Holy Day when Jesus was risen by God. I love honoring the Holy Days, of many faiths. . They represent a mythical journey of transformation, each year as we follow the stories and cycles through nature we have a chance to rebirth ourselves [...]
Since this all began a few weeks ago, I have moved through many different emotions; shock, grief, peace, acceptance... all parts of the process. There are times when I am very grateful for the pause, the slow down, and other times when I feel the weight of the unknown… and [...]
One of the biggest challenges for me is finding a way to bridge my inner experience with my outer life. From a pretty early age I had the feeling to just go within and meditate my life away in some distant cave high above the ocean. I really focused on [...]
I resisted it at first, I’ll admit it. The whole virus thing. I have a deep seeded mistrust of the media and usually I pay no attention to it. Usually when the media starts making a big deal about something, I assume that it is not what it seems, and [...]
I tend to become extremely overwhelmed at apparently simple tasks. After recently diving into this overwhelm, and with the help of my teacher Nina, I realized that what is underneath this is efforting. I tend to do things in a masculine way, with the need to get everything done ‘right [...]
Those that know me know that I am used to always being on the go. I travel extensively for work, am in graduate school, and have a passion for being of service and self-awareness. I am aware that this busyness in my life can act as a distraction from being [...]
During this time of inwardness, I am very grateful to say that I live in close proximity with some of my closest friends and fellow marinheiros, in this vast ocean of experience. I feel like my home is more a sanctuary now than it ever has been, and I have [...]
The only place I’ve gone outside of my home in the last week is out in nature, and even there I hear and see evidence of the virus with people talking with each other about how to be safe or what’s coming up for them. . What an interesting moment [...]
Man, what a rollercoaster this month has been, right? Some people sick, some people sheltering in place, it’s so hard to not let the fear of it all get to me. This is the weirdest thing that’s happened in my entire life. I am working right now in the mental [...]
